Come On, MarkyMark E. Paull

Come On,
Marky

A memoir in recursive time

The clinic wanted the number.He kept the reasoning.

Mark E. Paull · Montréal
Narrative nonfiction · 56,751 words · complete manuscript
Research notes, working papers and drafts: esp360.ca

The 1968 Canadian Diabetes Association Newsletter feature: a twelve-year-old Mark Paull on a dock at Miami Beach holding a fishing rod and a blue runner, the CDA Newsletter cover, a photograph of Dr. Charles Best, and the printed caption headed A Proud Angler.
Canadian Diabetes Association Newsletter, Fourth Quarter 1968 — one year after diagnosis.
The argumentChapter one begins in 1967

In 1967 an eleven-year-old boy in Montréal was handed insulin, a glass syringe and a notebook, and told to write down his blood sugar. Within days he was writing down more than that: what he had eaten, what he had predicted beforehand, whether the prediction held.

This is his sixtieth year with Type 1 diabetes, and the notebook habit never stopped. Come On, Marky is the story of that record and of what turned out to be in it.

A chart holds outcomes — the glucose value, the dose, the lab result. It does not hold the thinking that produced them. Every patient generates that layer every day, and nearly all of it is thrown away. The datasets now being used to train clinical artificial intelligence have the same hole in them. The machines are learning from what was left over.

That is the argument. The book makes it in scenes, because scenes are the only place it exists. A boy admitted at 425 mg/dL. A men's room in Montréal a year later, where a stranger walks in mid-injection and turns out to have been taking the same shot since 1928. A misjudged meal in Chinatown that produces a number telling the truth and explaining nothing. Decades of margin notes no clinician ever asked to see. And the death of a son, where the book stops being about data.

More about the book

What a record holdsand what it does not
ENTRY 07:42 — ROUTINEMONTRÉAL
Glucose6.1 mmol/L
Trendsteady
Insulinadministered
Carbohydrateestimated
Outcomein range
NOT CAPTURED

What I expected to happen before I dosed.

Why I trusted one signal and overruled another.

The low that happened yesterday, and what it made me do this morning.

The judgment that came before the dose, and the reason the correct choice was not obvious.

Both columns describe the same morning. Only one of them survives into the dataset.

One life, several eras of medicine
1967

Diagnosis, age eleven.

Glass syringes, urine testing, and almost no feedback until it was too late to act on it.

1968

The photograph.

A boy on a dock in Miami Beach appears in the Canadian Diabetes Association Newsletter. Charles Best is in the same issue.

1980s

Home blood testing.

For the first time a number arrives in the room while there is still something to be done about it.

1990s

Pumps.

Delivery changes. The cognitive work of deciding does not.

2000s

Continuous monitoring.

Physiology becomes visible in real time, and the absence of context becomes conspicuous.

Now

Clinical AI.

Systems learn from records that still cannot represent why a person acted.

Published workSelected
Finalist for the Jeffrey E. Smith Editors' PrizeThe Missouri Review, 2025 — for When Lindy Saved My Life
Pushcart Prize nominationMinyan Magazine, 2025 — for The Last Injection

Essays, features and peer-reviewed work in The New York Times, The Globe and Mail, STAT News, The Missouri Review, Diabetes Care, Diabetes Technology & Therapeutics, Intima at Columbia, Smithsonian Folklife, Minyan Magazine and Chicken Soup for the Soul.

The Missouri Review2026

When Lindy Saved My Life

Finalist for the Jeffrey E. Smith Editors' Prize. A greyhound, a body that does not announce what it needs, and the night it did.

STAT News2025

What My Continuous Glucose Monitor Can Never Capture

The published version of the argument the memoir makes in scenes.

The New York Times2025

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